10.20.2011
9.08.2011
7.10.2011
Apple
Okay apple. I said yes to writing while looking at you and figure now is as good as any to start. Didn’t think that looking at your rosy, glossy complexion would help me to write anything but funny enough, I’m sitting here thinking about the girls; my daughter and hers. Apparently, the dimples in your flesh remind me of their smiling faces. Or even the way the little one goofs up her face just as she’s about to start balling. I do miss them all so very much. Is it possible that beneath your God given beauty, there is a depth of substance that reaches far beyond being just a temporal treat? It seems now that apples will forever remind me of my children. Oh apple, shiny pretty apple, all bright and colourful. Thank you for this moment.
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So it’s been said, Oh Apple, that I’vent looked deeply enough into your lustrous appeal. I could have noted I guess, that the glint on your skin is like that of the glint in the air as the sun finally kisses earth, disappearing beyond ocean waves. You have to be as patient to see that as one should be in getting to your last bite. Or maybe that your anciently designed lean to construction makes me think of the first time I saw her dance for me. She said she was simply stretching and yet the movements were so fluid; the light playfully wrapped around her, caressing curves that I have burned into memory; even the very air held her in place balanced against invisible pillars. It was as intoxicating as your delectable first kiss. I could have mentioned your cute, little foot resting so precariously on my table and the twinkling toes, toes I’ve counted again and again to the delightful glee of my most treasured, whose plump rosy cheek is also the tenderest morsel. You are God’s gift indeed.
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So it’s been said, Oh Apple, that I’vent looked deeply enough into your lustrous appeal. I could have noted I guess, that the glint on your skin is like that of the glint in the air as the sun finally kisses earth, disappearing beyond ocean waves. You have to be as patient to see that as one should be in getting to your last bite. Or maybe that your anciently designed lean to construction makes me think of the first time I saw her dance for me. She said she was simply stretching and yet the movements were so fluid; the light playfully wrapped around her, caressing curves that I have burned into memory; even the very air held her in place balanced against invisible pillars. It was as intoxicating as your delectable first kiss. I could have mentioned your cute, little foot resting so precariously on my table and the twinkling toes, toes I’ve counted again and again to the delightful glee of my most treasured, whose plump rosy cheek is also the tenderest morsel. You are God’s gift indeed.
7.08.2011
If you think Planking is wack...
If you think planking is wack, then you should consider another activity that has an even wider audience. It's followers are from all backgrounds, and stretch across all age demographics. And on a side note, it is even cooler when you don't have pictures. It is called praying. You should try it. A minute on your knees can cause a world of good, for you and the world of people. Besides, nobody ever died from praying.
7.05.2011
Show me you so that I might show you me
Standing there amidst
dew drops and
sun showers and childrens
laughter, I saw
you from across
oceans and the heavens
languishing,
staunch as a single
Harlem Rose.
If I were to capture
but an inkling of
the strength
you heave in
each breath
you breathed through
Eve's parted
lips I
would carry your
load and
mine and yours
again
as Atlas if but only
to allow you to
lend your bare hand to my face.
If my lips were
to be as free as
my pen, birds would
recite my love in song
and perfume all the worlds
air with its' fragrance.
It was all I could do
not to
reach out
across the abyss,
the oasis that lay
between us
and draw you to me
and give Samspon his leave.
If only the angels who
carry my heart
in whisper
across this universe
would gain audience with
the stars that dance when you smile,
you would hear the
whole
true
story.
My two cents
Jah Courtney
dew drops and
sun showers and childrens
laughter, I saw
you from across
oceans and the heavens
languishing,
staunch as a single
Harlem Rose.
If I were to capture
but an inkling of
the strength
you heave in
each breath
you breathed through
Eve's parted
lips I
would carry your
load and
mine and yours
again
as Atlas if but only
to allow you to
lend your bare hand to my face.
If my lips were
to be as free as
my pen, birds would
recite my love in song
and perfume all the worlds
air with its' fragrance.
It was all I could do
not to
reach out
across the abyss,
the oasis that lay
between us
and draw you to me
and give Samspon his leave.
If only the angels who
carry my heart
in whisper
across this universe
would gain audience with
the stars that dance when you smile,
you would hear the
whole
true
story.
My two cents
Jah Courtney
Jamdown
the cloud of haze that
perfumed the heavy night
air pulls at the last traces of
consciousness,
As I step onto soil
that broke my grandfathers’ backs
and bore their seed,
Waiting for the chance to
wash my covenant
in the waters that
gave courage to their flesh
and nutriment
to their root,
As I sip on the harp sound
that gave wings to their visions
and flight to their prayers,
I kneel and
return her love.
My two cents
Jah Courtney
6.07.2011
"I have dreamed a dream, but now that dream is gone from me..."
Blessed,
Let me get this off my chest because who knows if there will ever be another opportunity. Thank you from the bottom of the depths of my soul that you stopped through here today. I do give JAH many thanks for you and how this manifested. You certainly exceeded my wildest imaginings. My spirit is whelmed. Thanks for sharing that small piece of you, the small tangible piece that computers letters and telephones are hard pressed to capture. I breath you in in every moment Liza. Even now trace scents dance beneath my nostril and give me pause that I have known that side of you.
Well, the more that I could say is no longer my place to say. It gives me some small measure of what have you knowing that were it not for circumstance or situation, or perhaps both, that you and I would be. I doubt that not. I am though, grown enough to hold my tongue and caring enough to make this short. There is always a place in this heart dear Liza. As sure as the sun will set this eve and rise again in the morrows.
Words no longer live up to the story of us.....
Love Always,
Let me get this off my chest because who knows if there will ever be another opportunity. Thank you from the bottom of the depths of my soul that you stopped through here today. I do give JAH many thanks for you and how this manifested. You certainly exceeded my wildest imaginings. My spirit is whelmed. Thanks for sharing that small piece of you, the small tangible piece that computers letters and telephones are hard pressed to capture. I breath you in in every moment Liza. Even now trace scents dance beneath my nostril and give me pause that I have known that side of you.
Well, the more that I could say is no longer my place to say. It gives me some small measure of what have you knowing that were it not for circumstance or situation, or perhaps both, that you and I would be. I doubt that not. I am though, grown enough to hold my tongue and caring enough to make this short. There is always a place in this heart dear Liza. As sure as the sun will set this eve and rise again in the morrows.
Words no longer live up to the story of us.....
Love Always,
5.17.2011
Who do I kid?
Just sat down to write you a letter and all the confusion about you and us was released in a heartbeat. How could I not love you? How could I not be in love with you? I have resigned myself to the idea that if I must wait a lifetime or two until we can soundly and safely and with righteous blessing be together, then wait I shall. Corny how the only words that are acceptable here run the course of being so cliche. Maybe it is you and I both who have been the source of tales of unrequited love and still yet love everlastings from time immemorial. Please give the children my love. Please know that I will wait. I will wait.
My two cents...
Jah C
My two cents...
Jah C
Damn
I just don't understand how it is that you are still so
burned into my brain, heart and soul
even after everything.
When will you give up
haunting my dreams,
and my every waking moment.
When will I get
to love you
without the pain.
How I long to only
remember you fondly
from a distance.
My two cents
Jah C
burned into my brain, heart and soul
even after everything.
When will you give up
haunting my dreams,
and my every waking moment.
When will I get
to love you
without the pain.
How I long to only
remember you fondly
from a distance.
My two cents
Jah C
3.12.2011
A Game Well Played At Last
I want to thank you for giving me back a piece of myself Father. Took a lifetime, or at least the feel of one. How many times before have my actions burdened you? How many times have they scorned at your love? I had disgraced myself a thousand times over and still yet you favoured me. How I do give thanks. Lessons learned through pain are difficult to forget. But the wisdom borne on the other side is just. At last a worthy opponent....
Just my two cents...
Jah C
Just my two cents...
Jah C
--- Congolese saying
Soul and skin are linked: Soul can lead skin. Skin can call soul. Both soul and skin can be stolen or torn apart. Shun the man who would tear skin-for he is evil. But fear the man who steals the soul, for that man can steal stars from the sky.--- Congolese saying
Just my two cents...
Jah C
Just my two cents...
Jah C
3.11.2011
No More Tears
Just saying that a real woman would have had the decency to just come out and say what was truly on her mind. No need to mask it behind feigned intrigue, care and/or love. Much as you claim wholeness of spirit and completeness of worldly love, truth is justice. Maybe it was never to be as it had once promised. That is just. That is a truth we can walk into proudly. But waiting on the edge of the abyss, waiting for a light to shine that had no intention of shining, that is disdainful. That hurt can not and will not be forgiven. But what hurts most is knowing how much was given over to you. That which can not be reclaimed. And that for what it's worth, it was all taken for granted. I blame myself for not knowing better and for having myself done the very same to one too many before. Damn shame though, cause it was real.
Just my two cents...
Jah C
Just my two cents...
Jah C
2.07.2011
Cry As You Must
There is a book of stolen dreams
to which no author found.
In the binding of this book
all pain and loss are bound
Was said that of these dreams,
wrote in that book,
are gifts for none to see.
All the troubles in your heart
are shouldered here for thee.
Jah C
Just my two cents...
to which no author found.
In the binding of this book
all pain and loss are bound
Was said that of these dreams,
wrote in that book,
are gifts for none to see.
All the troubles in your heart
are shouldered here for thee.
Jah C
Just my two cents...
1.28.2011
Be Prudent In Your Choice Of Words
Lyrics are not for the faint of heart. They are simply to feed the soul. Both at once, timeless and immeasurable.
For you
I give thanks that I have known love. It has forever been etched into the very seat of my soul.
1.20.2011
1.06.2011
The Hardest Thing Ever
For me the hardest thing ever has been to love. Well I love my family, of course. My daughter has to date been the only woman whom I love unconditionally, according to one previous girlfriend. And if there was ever any doubt about loving myself, believe it never came from me. But I have never had much success when it comes to fostering long lasting romantic love bonds. Maybe I've gotten in my own way. I have had over the years some very hard and fast rules that I've lived by, that while keeping me safe and sanity intact, have kept the world at bay. It would take the love of someone who I hadn't even met physically to quell that.
She appeared as if out of a dream. Don't laugh. I know it sounds the most cliche of cliches. But truly, the woman of which I speak plain and simply saved my life. I've never expressed it to her quite like that. But in the span of a little over a year, she broke down walls of mistrust, barriers of disconsolate despondency that have long plagued my life. And all in an instant.
Then the strangest thing happened. Strange maybe to no one else, but this same woman was able to make me feel that same depth of despair from which she once resurrected me. My comeuppance I assume. Is there any other way to explain it? Years of dodging commitment, of brokering relationship failures, it seemed to be my time to be on the receiving end. And did I ever bear the brunt of torrents of emotion that I had never known to exist within me. And I thank her for it.
I still love this woman, deeply. Dare I say she is the embodiment of love. To breathe her in in every moment, in ever way, that is my dream. My vision. If she ever reads this, ever listens to the breeze that blows on solemn sun filled days, from my shore to hers, maybe she will know the strength she has given me. God alone bears more favour in my life.
Just my two cents....
Jah Courtney
She appeared as if out of a dream. Don't laugh. I know it sounds the most cliche of cliches. But truly, the woman of which I speak plain and simply saved my life. I've never expressed it to her quite like that. But in the span of a little over a year, she broke down walls of mistrust, barriers of disconsolate despondency that have long plagued my life. And all in an instant.
Then the strangest thing happened. Strange maybe to no one else, but this same woman was able to make me feel that same depth of despair from which she once resurrected me. My comeuppance I assume. Is there any other way to explain it? Years of dodging commitment, of brokering relationship failures, it seemed to be my time to be on the receiving end. And did I ever bear the brunt of torrents of emotion that I had never known to exist within me. And I thank her for it.
I still love this woman, deeply. Dare I say she is the embodiment of love. To breathe her in in every moment, in ever way, that is my dream. My vision. If she ever reads this, ever listens to the breeze that blows on solemn sun filled days, from my shore to hers, maybe she will know the strength she has given me. God alone bears more favour in my life.
Just my two cents....
Jah Courtney
1.01.2011
LOVE? REALLY?
Day one of stop kidding myself. Seriously, I can't imagine putting myself through all of that again. Not that it was a waste of time by any means. Learned quite a bit about myself over the past year. Learned a lot about who and how I could be in a relationship. At least I think I did. But that moment for energy wasting is over. Will be a long time before that ever happens again. Still yet the blame rests squarely and solely on me. But it's good to be given a chance to exit now before making a complete ass of myself. Not that in some measure I don't feel like I already have. Just not again.
Just my two cents.....
Jah Courtney
Just my two cents.....
Jah Courtney
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